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Most of my days are spent at home. dating with books. i love motivational books. i love motivational quotes. i love update my facebook status with motivational quotes/sayings, quran verses that make me inspired because i will feel motivate when looking my profile. i love editing pictures and put motivational words on it. Then, i will print it and put on my study table to keep myself motivate. i love anything that make me inspired!

since i was in high school. i want to be motivator or psychologist. i have very low self-esteem, easily to get down but at the same time in front of others i will try to pretend myself that i’m okay.. but i admit that im not. :p sometimes i realized im not so good in manage things/situations, i will always care about others feelings rather than my own feelings, and its really hurt me. im tired of having this kind of situations..sometimes i love to be alone. nobody can hurt u.right? sometimes, i feel very sick holding to things that keep hurting me but at the same time i still love them and hoping for the changes in them.. im tired of having to pretend everything is okay when obviously everything is not. im tired of having to prove myself to others.. i hardly say no to others. And follow what others said. i hope i can be myself. Be stronger to speak on my own, my opinion, my feeling, my thought. hope i can boost up my low self esteem… i really want to learn and try to apply it in my life. Yes. i know its hard to apply it in real life.but i must keep change myself step by step to be a better muslimah...

motivational books: peneman setia di kala cuti~

my decorative bottles when i was in form 4. simpan lagi.
pasir2 import dari sarawak. curi masuk bawak dalam 'belon' :p

i will keep on praying that Allah will always guide me, guide my heart. my weak. fragile heart. i hope i can always make everyone around me happy. although sometimes ,i’m too weak to do so. This path is journey called life and i’m still searching. searching for the right things. searching for myself, searching for Allah’s love, searching for what’s and who’s right for me and correcting my weakness. sounds easy? not really. its easier said than done. either way i must try my best! i need to keep on moving and be confident for whatever that comes is in Allah’s control! insyaAllah. keep smiling dear! be tough! :)

i can be TOUGH. i can be STRONG! ksn domo kan? :D

we’re heading towards the end of Ramadan. how fast time flies. =__=

p/s: blogging is one of the best way to clarify what you can’t in real life especially for a girl who’s not so expressive about her feelings. sorry for grammar mistakes. im not well in english n still learning. *takpe ape kesah. bkn ade org baca pun* :p keep changing! aja2 fighting! BD

✿Barakallaahu fiykum wa jazzakumullah khoir✿

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everyone has their own past.and the past is not to be judged. but to be learned.. i know being strong is not easy, but its the only choice i have thats what ALLAH wants me to do! randomly written part of my journey to be a better muslimah.hopefully in future. when i read my blog again. i will smile n say to myself. you did it dear! you did better better than before.. never stop moving forward! Allah is always with u! keep istiqomah! changing from bad to good is a long-term adventure, but it is wonderful! shine on and dont give up on what u have decided to do! :) ♥

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Setiap manusia adalah arkitek kehidupannya sendiri. Dia membinanya seperti mana yang dikehendakinya namun selepas dia membina apa yang dikehendakinya, kadang kala dia mendapati bahawa dia tidak menyukai apa yang telah dibinanya dan mencari seseorang atau sesuatu untuk dipersalahkan daripada mencuba untuk menukar dirinya sendiri.... “Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.sometimes, HE breaks our heart to make us whole.sometimes, HE allows pain so we can be stronger.sometimes, HE sends us failure so we can be humble.sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything HE gave us..make plans but understand that we live by Allah’s grace.” :) ♥ "Wanita yang solehah tersenyum dalam kesusahan, mendapat kekuatan melalui doa, menenangkan hati melalui istighfar, dan mendidik diri melalui solat yang khusyu'. Susah itu tarbiyyah, sabar itu indah..." Perempuan itu diciptakan dari tulang rusuk,sementara yg paling bngkok itu bahagian teratasnya. Jika engkau berkeras meluruskannya,ia akan patah. Ttp jika engkau membiarkannya,ia akan bengkok selamanya. Maka nasihatilah perempuan dengan cara yg baik! ♥ "Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang beriman ialah mereka yang bila disebut nama Allah gemetarlah hati mereka, dan apabila dibacakan ayat-ayatNya bertambahlah iman mereka (karenanya), dan hanya kepada Tuhanlah mereka bertawakkal." “Sesiapa yg merasa sng oleh amal kebaikannya, dan merasa sedih atau menyesal atas perbuatan dosanya, maka dia seorang Mukmin.“ (Riwayat al-Tabarani) “Sebahagian daripada tanda matinya hati, iaitu jika tidak berasa sedih kerana tertinggalnya suatu amalan kebaikan, juga tdk menyesal jika terbuat suatu pelanggaran dosa. “ Syeikh Ibn Ata’illah

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We must also realize that nothing happens without a purpose. Nothing. Not even broken hearts. Not even pain. That broken heart and that pain are lessons and signs for us. They are warnings that something is wrong. They are warnings that we need to make a change. Just like the pain of being burned is what warns us to remove our hand from the fire, emotional pain warns us that we need to make an internal change. That we need to detach. Pain is a form of forced detachment. Like the loved one who hurts you again and again and again, the more dunya hurts us, the more we inevitably detach from it. The more we inevitably stop loving it.

and that’s why if we live in dunya with our hearts, it breaks us. That’s why this dunya hurts. It is because the definition of dunya, as something temporary and imperfect.

It isn’t because you’re weak. It isn’t because you’re just not grateful enough. It isn’t because you’re just not religious enough. It isn’t because you don’t have enough faith. It isn’t because God is angry with you. To all the well-meaning people who tell you this, just smile. And know deep in your heart that the tests of God come in different forms to different people. And know that, by the help of God, every test can become a tool to get closer to Him. And that, verily, with hardship come ease–and like all things of this world–this too shall pass.

With each new heartbreak, I was forced to look deeper intowhy. I was forced to look deeper into why it hurt so much -- into what I was missing. I was searching. I was falling. I was learning.

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”

Allah SWT sometimes like to delay the response when his servant asking HIM and calling out to HIM because Allah loves his servants to praise Him..because He loves them so much that He wants His name to be mentioned on their tongue more and more! And Allah sometimes delay the response bcoz if he knows that through that delaying you are rising in your levels in the Hereafter! Then Allah SWT wants you to come closer to Him! :)

Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything& make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best& expect only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past& press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you!

Truly in the heart there is a void that can not be removed except with the company of Allah. And in it there is a sadness that can not be removed except with the happiness of knowing Allah and being true to Him. And in it there is an emptiness that can not be filled except with love for Him and by turning to Him and always remembering Him. And if a person were given all of the world and what is in it, it would not fill this emptiness. — Ibn al-Qayyim

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